mylifehasbeenhell

i thought of a story and would likke to know if i should continue writing it. help me out!  i have discovered something, and i wish i hadnt, you know that some things should be left unsaid and secret, well, from where im standing...it wasnt a secret anymore. in fact it was only hidden from me. every one ithought i new, new. except me. why they chose to tell me finally i guess they dont even know themselves. i new something was up since the very begining but i never really thought about it, their faces pretty much told the whole story and i was just too obliviouse to everything and everyone around me. i just cannot understand why they refuse

only 4 more months till my dad(grandpa)'s annevursarys. may 1st was the day he died. and may 3rd was the funeral.

i hate my lap top grrr! i have to replace the dumb cd drive! cause it wont read anything! so i cant hook up my drawing tablet! augh! i was sooooo hoping to put up some artwork of mine! i wish i had a scanner! rrrrrgh! the only reason i cant go on DA is because i dont have internet now but ive recently been on da because im at a hotel and ive missed a whole month of school because my sister has to be in bellingham instead of seattle because her dumb ass doctor just had to be like 4 hours away and my sister just had twins on my grandmas birthday january 16! god now im gonna fail 9th grade i soooooo so do not want to be held back at all!!!!!!!!!